How it is

You sent me a message and I got bubbly,

I was turned on but sadness and anger coursed next

Do you know I cannot trust you... not anymore.

I cannot watch the world pass me as you pass forward.

I cannot pretend that our 'love' surpasses my existence,

Or that your life surpasses mine.

I have passion and things are personal, yes

I might have to fend for myself, yes

But you will never fend for me against you.

You will never stand up and say, I should treat you better

You will never stop and realize how lucky you had it

You say you want this, that, the other, you want another but I gave it all

Then when it doesn't work with them you call out my name, in the name of 'caring'

I can never go back there with you,

Someone must fend for me and I am the only volunteer.

Leaving you was one of the best choices I have ever made.